Sexy

too much

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 08:22:54 GMT

i havent been on here for a while! but i just got my computer finally so i can write o here anytime i want to! well just thought of writting something quick im so exahsted i only had NINE HOURS OF SLEEP IN TWO DAYS its horrible i cant even keep my eyes open i went to see that new movie about that guy getting over sarah something that movie was hilarious my friend was laughing the whole time i almost passed out i was so freaking tired i couldnt do it anymore but now im home and im freaking hyper mabey its just cuz that movie was freaking a little depressing in the beginging and it had alot of sex scenes! wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol it was funny tho!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Too many part 2!!!!!!!!!!

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 06:46:22 GMT

WoW so where was i?>? i think i was talking about how Mingus Changed my life thinking and everything into perspective! OH The crzyest thing that happened was when i was working at Arbys! I think what happened there changed me too! Mingus changed Every BAD thing in me! I just cant explain it!!!!! But on my tenth month being there i couldnt handle it anymore! Girls EVERYWHERE!! ESRS eVERYWHERE!! i hated hearing the screams of the tourchor! and the cutting and the blood and the nasty things the girls were doing to eachother! I only had one real REAL friend there and sad to say shes still up there when i visited this december! she ran up to me and kissed my cheek! i miss her! shes only fifteen old enough to be my sis! but my friend she is anywho back to my story, the tenth month was when my whole team decieded it was time for me to get out of the High placement and do a step down treatment and see how i could handle being down in phoenix! that month i had alot of break downs and alot of Self abuse! i hated being there my staff had to get in my face to make me stop hating myself so! i hated life at that moment cuz i was scared of leaving and then again reliefeD! but a my elventh month i left almost a year! i left in march and went to florence crittenton! when i first arrived there i was nervous! i heard alot of rumors and alot of garbage from people up from prescott valley! so i decieded to make my own assumptions and face it! but when i walked in i saw to girls go at it! omg! i still hate the way girls treat eachother it disgusts me! gosh@@@@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I learned alot there too! the main thing is its all in your head! And dont let other people make you mad! oh boy! i was so pissed when this girl threw eggs in my face! i sat up and sat back down i didnt think it was worth fighting someone who stooped that low! But heather pulled me away from the girls who were laughing in my face and calling me a chicken for not kicking her butt! but i am the bigger person! i didnt hit her so hard she would be on the ground! that madE me feel more better! im glad i didnt! im such a bigger person than that girl! i doont even remember what we were talking about! oh i think it was about moving?!?! idk!! After 3 months or so i was being interviewed for group homes in phoenix! and the crazyiest thing! My first interview was by a christian based group home for girls 5-18 and they accepted me! i loved it there so much! okay i gotta go to sleep nnooowww!! write more later!

too manY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 02:33:43 GMT

I havent been on here in forever! im sorry i went through so much and havent had the actual time to be on here! i feel really safe on here! like no one can read this!! it means so much to me! My long story about what happened in 2006! ok this part is so wierd so my dad was going to Skateland and asked if i wanted to come and i was like no. Ten mins later these guys come to my house knocking on the door asking to drink with them. Stupid me says yes and we are off walking the streets trying to get some hard booze! by the time we get the stuff my dad is calling me and everything and i watch them get drunk@! i tried drinking and i didnt get drunk at all so i remember just pretending i was drunk like a frieking idiot! Then we went to the skatepark and met these homeless people who offered us some more alcohol and by the time i finished i was drunk. i Passed out and woke up wanting a cigarette so bad that i walked to the Quick trip near my old high school called coronado and broke all the windows and stole as many cigarettes as i possibly could. The next thing i knew was that i was at this one house who i thought was my friends boyfriends house. He was yelling and screaming and Everything so we left and went to dennys and ate and apperantly my parents were looking for me and apperantly my not so good friend was high off of Coke! which seriously scared the CRAP out of me! cuz she offered me some And i said NO!! i saw what it did to people and i would never in my dreams do that! but while we were at dennys i told her the whole story and she didnt believe me so we went down there and the cops were there and caught us down! At first i was scared cuz the shock of what i did hit me like thunder! but i knew if i didnt tell the truth my life would chatter like a big bolk of ice! i was drunk! and tired and my not so good friend was lying the whole time! while i was being truthful and trying to rest my case cuz i was in enough trouble from my home situation and the court! And she also had a warrant out for her arrest~ So the cops took us in to the scottsdale police department and locked us up. We were transfered to The south east facility in mesa the next day! i have been there at least two times before. and the day after that our sentencing came in i was adjudicated with a felony which means i wasnt tried as an adult but i must pay the fee! which im in process of doing right now! but i was also sentenced to a Treatment center out of scottsdale cuz the last one was right behind my house and they didnt like it! so a month later i was interviewed by mingus mountain! and i was so scared i was sixteen and in a lock down place trying to get in another lock down facility. So about a month later i was picked up and taken to Mingus mountain andmingus is located in Prescott valley! ! I was so quite! the quietest person there for a month and my favorite almost dislike staff made me scream yell open my lungs and take charge! I loved it i just had so many things to take care of for myself and i wanted to scream out my secret i felt like an outcast and such a backperson and not the real me! so After 4 months of completing my program with my therapist and moving down to the valley which isnt on the mountain and in a house. I got a job and started saving and paying that one fee! and that one day i was told of my discharge date i panicked!!!!!!!!! i didnt want to go back! i would just end up killing myself or dying off of drinking or something like that. But before i even got to tell my therapist she confronted me about it cuz i told a past client that left and asked for her advice! and she promised she wouldnt tell but she did and im so thankful she did! i miss her so much! but i fell to my kness begging for this pain to go away and started weeping my therapist which happened to be a christain women got on her knees and started praying and holding me like i was her daughter! i loved that moment i was finallly free of my secret and holding things in! when i left that room i was the happiest person alive i felt immobile again like i could finally be free to talk to people without crying i loved it so i started talking to everyone i could to ask for there help! and for a long time i went through this tough and hard depression i had to see the dectectives cops and alot of other things and even Cps and tell my story to all of them. But my parents denied everything~ and my sister and brother didnt know! and what makes me mad is my i told my mom when i was in the detention in mesa! all she did was looked at me and cried!! until it was time for me to go back! she didnt say one word! i dont know i havent talked to her about it ever! i think she knew but thats a whole argument there. but i went through so much at mingus i laughed i cried i got over so many obstacles and i learned the real me and i found god again! this time the real one! my therapist helped me and so did Ed! but i will finsh the rest of my long story later im going to go for a jog!

Writer's Block: Happy Halloween!

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 02:04:34 GMT

Boo! How did you celebrate Halloween?

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i went to a party AND THEN WENT TRICK OR TREATING IT WAS LAME!!

hey

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 22:24:19 GMT

well yea my family is retarted and they told me to get a job and move out and shit i cant wait i just need to find a funcking job ha ha well yea i havent been on here in a while so yea whats up my homies

hey

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 05:20:33 GMT

im leaving for north dakota on fridy to see my grandma shes turning 70 lo l well yeah its a vacation well a 2 week vacation how is everyone on here doinG??

whats up??

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 19:49:52 GMT

its summer and there is nothing to do it sucks!!!!! WEll my sis like has her first boyfriend its sooo cute his name is matt!! its soo cute!! this is her first boyfriend EVer@!!!! lol and My grandma is like turining 70 this year!! and my family is thinking about going up there for her birthday!! i dont wanna go tho!! grrrr well whats up with you peopleS??? i havent talked to any of you in a long time!!!! LOL well g2g *hugs*

hey people

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 22:34:17 GMT

someones was like messing with my profile on myspace so heres my URL:http://blog.myspace.com/17754936 ADD me please well the people that i know!
summer is really boring i swear i wish i had something fun to do but no!!!!!
Give me ideas people ok ok!!!!!

hey

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 02:31:49 GMT

i havent been on this in a while and im sorry!!!!! well its summer now and i hate it i wish i was back in skool there is absoultely nothing to do!!!! serioulsy i hate it i wanna go to school well yeah i met this great guy named alex he lives right down my street and hes awsome i dont know tho i dont know him that well yet well hes awsome and charleen we need to get together sometime i miss you have you talked to trinda yet well if you hear from her tell me..well g2g buh bye

how are you?

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 01:04:59 GMT

im good just yeah i hate people who start shit yeah this morning at skool i was standing in front of her and she was sitting down and this guy pulled down my shorts..(a little) and it showed my butt and she called my a fuckin bitch then at like fourth period my boyfriend said that he needed to talk to me and it didnt sound good i felt like throwing up!!!!geeze!!!but he told me one of his friends told him i was cheating on him i said"no" i would never do that shit its soo fucked up its like taking the guys heart and stepping on it!!well thats how it felt for me when this asshole did it too me:< oh well!! im soo fucking confused cuz yeah i used to be friends with my bf and yeah its wierd and whenever i see this guy i dont even know we just stare at eachother its sooo wierd!!!yeah its wierd!!and we look until we couldnt see eachother anymore!!i dont know what to do what do i do?

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 22:23:22 GMT

Who are you?bonnie fay
2. Are we friends?i guess
3. When and how did we meet?on livejournal
4. How have I affected you?......you make me laugh
5. What do you think of me?your awsome
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?..dont have one
7. How long do you think we will be friends?unknown
8. Do you love me?..mabey
9. Do you have a crush on me? mabey
10. Would you kiss me?yeah
11. Would you hug me?yeah
12. Physically, what stands out?...?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?your awsomeness
14. Do you wish I was cooler?no your perfect just the way you are
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? 8.5
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.Dork cuz you just are
17. Am I loveable?..unkown
18. How long have you known me?for a while
19. Describe me in one word.dork
20. What was your first impression?silly
21. Do you still think that way about me now?yeah
22. What do you think my weakness is??
23. Do you think I'll get married?yeah
24. What makes me happy?everything
25. What makes me sad?....?
26. What reminds you of me?...penis
27. If you could give me anything what would it be? anything you wanted
28. How well do you know me?..not that well yet!!!
29. When's the last time you saw me? never saw you
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?yeah
31. Do you think I could kill someone?no
32. Have we ever had sex?no i want to
33. Do you miss me?yeah
34. Do you think i miss you?....
35. How many scene points do i have?..?
36. Are you going to put this on your Live Journal and see what I say about you? yeah

what is love?

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 02:53:36 GMT

why does it hurt?
why do people need it?
why? answer me that....
cuz love hurts and i dont wanna be in love anymore!!!!!!!
why....why?????????????
I Wanna die!!

tears

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 22:55:04 GMT

gosh i want my dad to die its like he only cares for his lazy ass i hate him oh well he will die someday and i will rejoice i am sorry i havent been on the computer lately i have been buisy but im doing good i dyed my hair brown and i have a new bf hes soo cute long brown and hair and really sweet and yeah hes awsome he asked me out on friday and yeah........lol julio why arent you talkin to me on aim?..*tears* oh well im getting good grades soo far and trying to get along with my retarted family and im getting my room i used to live on a couch cuz my dad saw me talk to this guy through the window like when i was 5 or 6 hes soo fucking retarted...oh well i am getting my room soon.....how are you guys i miss you i will try to read up on all your journals to know whats going on well g2g lots to do.....

I WANNA DIE

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 03:29:59 GMT

can someone just kill me so i can die i hate my life why?!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????im confuckled

omg

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 01:09:08 GMT

i feel soo bad my insides hurt oh well it doesnt matter oh i got my hair cut and had the funest time with my mom...the first really and i have a boyfriend his name is zack ....oh well at least im happy

now

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 20:24:08 GMT

i have a boyfriend well my xxx boyfriend...it didnt work out those other times but we had fun...lots of it....lol...he has blonde hair blue eyes and is a little taller than me and hes 16 a perfect guy for me and he gets my mind off this other guy i like the only problem is now i still like that one guy and i think of him and its wierd....oh well i will make it work cuz the guy i like has a girl and i am not waiting anymore...soo everything is going good i am getting a job enterview today and yeah i have a bf and all my grades are good and my friends are being nice..lol i wish it could stay this way well g2g bye

i feel bad

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 20:25:31 GMT

cuz i broke up with mouse he wasnt at skool today*tears* it has happend to him twice..i feel so bad but i didnt like him....and i know now i will probably have no chance with levi....*tears*oh well i can find someone better .....who should i look for?

today was horrible

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 20:21:11 GMT

ok like...this guy liked me and has asked me out and i said yeah and like at lunch i broke up with him because i still have feelings for levi and after i broke up with that guy i told him how i felt and he told me he still has a girlfriend and he still likes her and i lost it and said ok whatever i went to the bathroom and cried..it just hurts to know the person you like just walks all over you and tells you to keep quite! i want to die i always get hurt by guys and i hate it mabey i wasnt meant to find my one true love...what do i do now??!??? i just wanna die!!!!!HELP ME why do people hurt me all the time i even get hurt at home.....i dont understand.......and i guess i never will.......*TEARS*what should i do.....?!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????

omg

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 20:36:22 GMT

today like 2 guys asked me out and yeah its bad cuz they are both dorks and yeah i dont know people say its always good to try different things i dont know its soo confusing i dont know geeeeeeeez what should i do? HELP ME>>>
please please *tears* cant stop crying gosh i wish i could find the one right guy to be with forever and ever like snow white but i guess that is only in fairy tales i wannna cry....... what should i do?

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 22:17:05 GMT

http://profiles.myspace.com/users/17725851 thats my myspace if you want to see it omg skool is back up tomarrow i dont wanna go but i dont want to stay home its soo boring nothing to do so how are you guys doing? did you guys see the new chevell video its awsome its called the clincher watch it and listen to the words its awsome well g2g get ready for tomarow...i miss you julio..and tony write me

i am over

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 19:30:11 GMT

with him .....i feel free and intergetic i just want to jump around and tell everyone ha ha ha i feel like flying and crying at the same time im soo confused.....my spring break was fun but boring had time to myself to think and get stuff off my mind *happy as can be* i wish spring break wasnt over omg my stomach hurts.......*tears* how have you people been doing i miss you guys........bye now

i will never be happy

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 20:06:01 GMT

i just wont everything always go's wrong and yeah i ditched all the way till lunch it was fun oh well omg im so tired i woke up at like 2 in the morining it was soo gay so yeah oh well i have to get over levi and fast cuz i am going crazy@@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 21:38:54 GMT

add lindathegreat! she is awsome so yeah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i feel better i cut my bangs i have bangs now it looks cool well thats what everyone says ha ha well g2g bye

omg

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 20:12:29 GMT

there is like alot of fights at my school its soo wierd but there were alot of pigs and mexicans fighting it was crazy like everyone was like watching and yeah anyways levi is almost out of my head no more i cant take it..it hurts too much and i have been hurt to much by people.....today has been crazy i only have 4 more hours of community service and im done so yeah we have no school next week so happy Lol..talk to me on aim people..bye

tears

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 20:14:14 GMT

all my friends tell me like the guy i like is just using me and it hurts and i dont know if its true.. i dont know...well his name is levi and he has a girlfriend named lauren and shes like 18 and hes 16 and yeah i think thats grosse but anyways like yeah it hurts cuz i like him alot....i never felt like that before..is he using me?...... im confused......yeah anways im getting my grades up..yep im soo happy anyways what do i do....do i just forget him and never talk to him again or just wait i will be waiting forever i dont know what to do HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!